Everything is preceded by some other thing. And everything I’m doing has something else coming after it. What I’m doing has been helped - - or hindered - - by what I did before. What I do now can help, or hinder, what I will be doing. It’s like everything has sticky spider webs attached to it.
I am blessed because I can isolate myself in the moment. I can ignore the spider webs. I don’t agonize about what I did, or didn’t do. I don’t fret about what is next. Or, maybe, this is a non-blessing. Maybe I should be thoughtful of how one activity connects to the next.
But on the other hand, I often don’t have the best I could have in the present because of what I’ve left out of what should have come before. Also I don’t take the opportunity to set up for what is supposed to come next. If I did, it would make it easier for myself.
At the time of procrastination I could replace my for-the-moment self with a reflective, evaluative and forward looking, planning self.
This would take place at a very time when I don’t want to make any changes. Maybe I feel this way because I’m between two for-the-moment periods. Since I am for-the-moment, and don’t presently have anything to do, I feel uncomfortable.
Yet my tendency is always to stay the same. Changing from one thing to another is something I don’t want to do - - I want to stay the same, stay the course, whatever it is.
