What comes ahead of time is really important. Get to bed on time so I can get enough sleep, so I can get up in time, so I can exercise in time, so I can get ready in time so I can read on time, so I can get in to the day on time. Everything is preceded by something. Everything I'm doing has something else coming after it. What I'm doing has been helped or hindered by what I did before. I can help, or hinder, what I will be doing. But I don't want to move from one thing to another. It's like everything has sticky spider webs attached to it.
That's what procrastination is: the sticky spider web of not wanting to change.
Sometimes when I am doing something I am blessed because I can isolate myself in the moment - I can ignore the spider webs. I don't agonize about what I did, or didn't do. I don't fret about what's next. It's so easy just to stay the same.
But on the other hand, I often don't have the best I could have in the present because of what I've left out of what should have come before. Also I don't hake the opportunity to set up for what's next, thereby making it easier for myself further on.
At the time of procrastination I could replace my for-the-moment self with a reflective, evaluative and forward looking, planning self.
This would take place at a very time when I don't want to make any changes. Maybe I feel this way because I'm between two for-the-moment periods. Since I am for-the-moment, and don't presently have anything to do I feel uncomfortable. Yet my tendency is always to stay the same. Changing from one thing to another is something I don't want to do - - I want to stay the course, whatever it is, even if changing the course would make things easier or better.
